Tuesday, February 15, 2011

My Heart Aches for Lonely People


     Some of you have seen this video before, others maybe not.  It was a short A&E "Intervention" episode chronicling the life of an old semi-famous boxer who became addicted to crack.  I look at this video and I see a man who has been lost in a jungle of despair and agony for so many years that it's unfathomable.  I really don't think I've ever felt so scared in my entire life than after watching this video and seeing in this man everything I felt.  Only this man felt it for many, many years.


     I can't imagine ever putting my family through any of this.  This man is so lucky to have a group of people who loved him enough to tell him that he needed to get help.  I've never been so grateful for my family; the people who were there for me and still loved me after all I did had come to pass.  They were there to pick up the pieces and guide me toward a brighter future for myself.


     I don't want to ever put any of my future children through my addiction.  You can to this man's kids and hear the anger and frustration and sadness.  It's really chilling, it's really human.  At the end the man lets out a sad moan that is just heart wrenching.  Most people laughed at this and it become kind of an internet joke but I've never heard a sadder cry.  He was trying to not let anything come out but all the years of his addiction came belting through his voice.  It's like hearing a lamb being slaughtered or hearing a human being being tortured.  I don't ever want to see this... I don't ever want to be this....


     I haven't had any cravings to go back to drugs, and watching videos like this really effects me to the point where the thought of any type of drug sickens me.  I'm going to stay safe and strong and I'll hope you'll all do the same.  Love your family, love your friends... you never know when you'll have to depend on them and whether or not they'll be there for when you need them most.

34 comments:

  1. my mother went through a faze of being addicted to drugs, i think it was coke or perscription drugs or something cant remeber. But i do know she ended up cleaning out my savings account and cashed savings bonds i got as a baby, i was 14 at the time i found out.

    It ended up causing me to choose to live with my father from that point on, was a fucking hard thing to do as my mom tried to guilt me into staying by claiming i didnt love her any more. Fuck are parents so full of shit.

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  2. Very life-affirming. I'm very grateful I have family and friends there to provide support when I need it.

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  3. seeing family members and friends all around you get addicted to multiple drugs is very sad

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  4. This guy is so lucky he has the family to stand up and not enable him to carry on

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  5. It really is sad when people get addicted to things..

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  6. @KLJ Depends on what things they get addicted to...

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  7. Ive manager to kick all of my addictions except for food. I love food.

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  8. I cant watch intervention. It makes me depressed.

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  9. Crack is one hell of a drug. I tried it once, it sucks guys, believe me.

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  10. My heart goes out to all those involved in addiction.

    Not going to lie though... that laugh made me lol.

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  11. Hes lucky he has a family. Some people got so caught up with their addiction they don't even know their family anymore.

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  12. Feel for this guy, but It all comes down to your own personal choice whether to do drugs

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  13. The majority of the kids I grew up with ended up being addicted to hard drugs. Most of them have since quit their jobs and don't have many ambitions anymore. I miss the days when we were all young and had innocent minds.

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  14. I had a friend who has now completely fucked up his life because of cocaine. Very sad to lose him as a friend because of that.

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  15. Oh godz, I do remember seeing that. It *was* heart-wrenching, even though I hate the way that Intervention show is put together.

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  16. man, this show always gets to me. my uncle was killed in a bad drug deal.

    http://2realthoughts.blogspot.com/

    follow me up, man. you need feel depressed, come read some of the stuff i post. game stuff/movie/music/random stuff.

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  17. I'd never seen the full video before. This is about as good as an intervention could have gone.

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  18. I think that you are impacted by things like this shows that, while it may feel hard sometimes, you're certainly on the straight and narrow path of sobriety.

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  19. i dont do any drugs, only weed. :]

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  20. I can't imagine what that guy's been through.

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  21. Good man. Keep strong and keep clean.

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  22. Lost a friend to alcoholism and drunk driving. Shit fucked me up.

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  23. this made me feel a bit emotional, I'm glad it has inspired you to stay away from those substances

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  24. A good way to stop doing drugs is to never do them in the first place.

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  25. Makes me sad to see someone get addicted to that stuff and just blow away their life

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  26. It's sad to see this kind of thing happen.

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  27. Love seems like the most powerful drug. Remember the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to be loved and to give love in return.

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  28. This is heartbreaking. Makes me feel good to be at this place in my life.

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  29. Requiem for a Dream pretty much scared me from any drug other than marijuana. Pretty powerful movie if you haven't seen it.

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  30. i haven't seen intervention in ages, i saw the previews for this particular one ages ago but never actually saw it

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