Tuesday, February 15, 2011
My Heart Aches for Lonely People
Some of you have seen this video before, others maybe not. It was a short A&E "Intervention" episode chronicling the life of an old semi-famous boxer who became addicted to crack. I look at this video and I see a man who has been lost in a jungle of despair and agony for so many years that it's unfathomable. I really don't think I've ever felt so scared in my entire life than after watching this video and seeing in this man everything I felt. Only this man felt it for many, many years.
I can't imagine ever putting my family through any of this. This man is so lucky to have a group of people who loved him enough to tell him that he needed to get help. I've never been so grateful for my family; the people who were there for me and still loved me after all I did had come to pass. They were there to pick up the pieces and guide me toward a brighter future for myself.
I don't want to ever put any of my future children through my addiction. You can to this man's kids and hear the anger and frustration and sadness. It's really chilling, it's really human. At the end the man lets out a sad moan that is just heart wrenching. Most people laughed at this and it become kind of an internet joke but I've never heard a sadder cry. He was trying to not let anything come out but all the years of his addiction came belting through his voice. It's like hearing a lamb being slaughtered or hearing a human being being tortured. I don't ever want to see this... I don't ever want to be this....
I haven't had any cravings to go back to drugs, and watching videos like this really effects me to the point where the thought of any type of drug sickens me. I'm going to stay safe and strong and I'll hope you'll all do the same. Love your family, love your friends... you never know when you'll have to depend on them and whether or not they'll be there for when you need them most.